If you don’t like something, change it.  If you can’t change it, change the way you think about it or you cannot change what you refuse to confront.

Such simple words and such good advice but something most of us find hard to do/follow. I am sure I am not the only person who finds it is hard to follow these simple guidelines, in fact I am not a big fan of change never have been doubt I will ever be. Me and change just don’t sit well together, how about you do you find change comes easy to you.  Or when faced with change do you want to run and hid and yell NO………. I don’t want anything to change…………I like things just the way they are…………..lol

Change is part of life for me and you and everyone it is part of growing up and growing older so of course there has been changes in my life…………………..

That said sometimes we have to learn to live with something because we are unable to change it such as a medical condition so we just have to learn to live with it for me this I believe will be the case with me being so low in iron after talking to the specialist he gave me the impression that I may just have to learn to live with being low in iron and that there may not any reason for the low iron it could just be who I am.

So how do you deal with change to you embrace it or run from it?

 

Do you have pen friends?

How often do you write to them?

Me I have a lot of pen friends around 20 odd and I write letters to my pen friends weekly or fortnightly and some of my pals I have been writting to for 20 years or more, these friends are real friends I feel a strong concention with my pen friends the long time friends and those who I have only been writting to for a couple of years.

It always makes me happy when I check the mail and find a letter from a friend so much nicer then just getting bills or junk mail all the time.

Some days life seem harder than other days even while on my medication, I have times when I lay in bed at night and wonder why life has to be so hard and trust me it is so hard, harder than I would like.

Sometimes I wonder why it is that we never hear from Natasha unless she wants money or something else, well it feels like those are the only times we hear from her. Or how I have managed to piss Kathy off again while talking to her on the phone like this morning she rang me and got all annoyed that I had answered the phone sounding angry which I wasn’t, in fact I was playing with my niece Temika when she rang and I was in a good mood but Kathy said I was angry and sounded really annoyed with me. When Kathy is annoyed with me she will call me “mother” with that tone of annoyance.

Then there are times when I feel if I can’t do something for Jessica I will be letting her down ok I often feel like I let Kathy down or that I have failed Kathy in some way but it is not a feeling I get in regards to Jessica very often.

Of course there is many times when I feel stressful just living with Tim and how he is such a tight ass with money on a day to day basis, he can be very generous at times and will spoil me. I just wish he would be a little more like my dad and give me money so I can get him a nice present for his birthday or Father’s Day thankfully I often manage to get him something nice for Christmas but only because I get Chrisco Christmas Hampers and will usually get a gift card that I can either give him or use to buy him something…………..

Lately I have been so broke there are times when all I want to do is cry and Tim isn’t and help all he will say is he hasn’t any money but he always seems to fine money for his grog, smokes and other stuff he feels like buying……..