Before she left last night Jess put the chicken on too cook in the slow cooker.

I am in a stressed mood snapping at everyone. I just have no patience with anyone.

Felt really hot around 3pm and I turned on the air con.

Tim bought himself a new computer and I am annoyed because if it was mine that died I would have had to wait longer.

I am exhausted by 5.30pm

I was awake at 6am but laid in bed till 6.30am, I went to aqua. I really need new swimmers as the ones I have are 2 sizes too big.

It has been another very warm day

Monday now and yesterday it was very warm,today it is dark and wet when I woke up at 7am the house was very dark, I thought it was earlier.

Had to go to bed for an hour at 10.30am.

Tuesday it has been raining heavy all afternoon.

Leo is here for the night

Wednesday saw heavy rain all morning, I have given Leo an umbrella even though he has managed to destroy three of them already.

Didn’t do much else for the rest of the day.

Thursday I was up at 7am still wet outside, I have a Dr’s appointment.

I have been referred to a specialist about the rheumatoid arthritis as the blood test isn’t conclusive.

This afternoon Leo walked down to Coles with Blain and on returning he went to Blain’s to hang out and play Xbox.

Also at school today he was hit in the head with a metal gate, thankfully he is ok and not hurt.

Up at 6.45am, managed to dress myself and do my own make-up before going to Charlie to meet mum and others for breakfast.

Tasha was in a mood this morning complaining about having to get Mum’s scooter each Friday.

Kelli & Freya met Jessica and me at the square and Jessica drove me home in Kelli’s car.

Jessica bought me another fancy eclair this one was strawberry, it was nice but a bit sickly.

Jess got Leo out of school early so he could go back to Kelli’s for the night but he didn’t want to go so just stayed at home while Jess was at work.

Jessica & Tim went and bought her car, now I have to find insurance for it.

Saturday and I woke at 7.30am this morning and it was an effort to get up but of course I did and had Tim help me get dressed.

I helped Tim with his new computer and did more research for car insurance. It is comprehensive insurance we need, for Jessica’s new car.

Tim and I went out for lunch to the Eastern Tiger for lunch as it. is our 35^th wedding anniversary tomorrow. No gifts exchanged we don’t do that.

Kathy brought the shopping over and got the clothes off the line but didn’t do the bed.

Sunday now and the time has come to post this.

Happiness comes of the capacity to feel

deeply, to enjoy simply, to think freely,

to risk life, to be needed

 

BY: StormJameson

Another week gone, another week started.

Tim went to take Mum’s car to work and it wouldn’t start again. He took the bike to work.

It has been a nice day spent alone.

Monday I slept in till 9am as I just didn’t feel like getting up. Tim was lent a battery pack starter by a guy at work which he used to start Mum’s car.

Sandy came over to print something.

She was annoyed that Tim has Mum’s car. He drove it to work.

Managed to write 3 letters.

Monday I woke up at 8.20am this morning was surprised by the time.

Sandra came and picked up Mum’s car she will return it on Thursday morning before I need it to go to my appointment that morning.

Leo had to walk to school on his own because Tasha is fed up driving him each morning.

Leo is here tonight, Natasha was suppose to ring Leo this morning and tell him to leave for school but forgot. She also said she was going to get him out early but thankfully she didn’t.

Kathy’s birthday I sent her a voice message.

Wednesday I was up at 6.30am this morning, just before Tim got up. Leo got up around some time and left for school on time.

Been a nice day, haven’t done much all day.

Up at 7am and had a nice hot bath took the heater from the lounge room into the bath room, so I was warm.

Sandra dropped off Mum’s car, Sue picked Sandy up.

Tim and I went to counselling the lady was nice, although she was very soft spoken and I found it annoying. I go back next month.

She thinks I should see another neurologist and has a problelm getting her head around how long I have had the tremor.

Leo came home from school today as he had a sore throat and was so tired. Jess said that as soon they got home he laid down and slept for a couple of hours.

Up at 7am to Natasha knocking on the door.

Last night Leo asked if he could connect his laptop to Papa’s computer and we said sure. However, Tim’s computer screen chose that time to pack it in. of course Tim blamed Leo but after he spoke to Michael he realised that Leo did nothing.

I didn’t wear make up today.

Kathy & the girls turned up with shopping at 4.45. I gave her a birthday present and she seemed to like it.

Up at 7am dressed and ready for Jess to drop off Leo Tim is at work so just me and Leo for the day.

I had a diabetic turn with low BGL Leo had to give me so honey.

Tasha was trying to move photos from her phone to her hard drive but it wasn’t working.

Well that is it for this week, time to post.

Father’s Day today, our first without Dad. Went to Mum’s for lunch it was a nice outing. Dave & Leigh with Sue & Sandy went to see Dad and took the card I got for Dad and left it on his grave.

Monday I woke up with a headache but other wise I am ok. I ended up going back to bed for 1.5hrs at 9.15am.

Tim was here when I got up at 10.45am, he left at 1.30pm to go back to work.

I did two loads of washing today.

Tuesday, I woke up at 6.45 but stayed in bed till 7.20, Tasha came and helped me get dressed.

At 8.45 the power went out, it may be out till 4pm while Ausgrid do some work. We received notice this would happen a few weeks back.

At midday I went to have a lay down and I am surprised that I slept for 2hrs. However, I woke feeling lightheaded and foggy, so I ate and then I was fine kinda.

At 2.30pm the power came back on.

Leo is here tonight

Thursday I woke up at 6.15, tired as……..

I have had too have two naps today.

I am going to sleep watching telly so off to bed for me

Woke up at 6.15, tired as……..

I have had too have two naps today.

I am going to sleep watching telly so off to bed for me

Friday saw me up again at 6.15am, Tasha rang me at 7am and came to help me get dressed.

It was nice at breakfast 2 sisters and 2 nieces and 1 great-niece turned up, with Tasha and Mum of course.

I have felt tired all day again.

Jessica bought me a Legacy bear.

Been very windy and a hot wind at that, all afternoon, had to turn the air con on for a while.

Saturday and Jessica is working but we don’t have Leo as he is going to Kelli’s for the day.

I slept in till 7.20am, Tim is off today.

Mum is worried about Dawson going out and not arranging a lift home in advance. Although on Friday he arranged for Sam to pick him up but tonight she was unable to do it so Tasha went and got him before she got me already for bed.

Tim went out to start mum’s car to go down the road and it had a flat battery so had to get Tasha to jump start it.

The moments of happiness we enjoy

takes us by surprise. It is not that we

seize them, but that they seize us

 

BY: Ashley Montagu

Another week over another week started, let’s hope it is a better week.

Woke up feeling horrible and depressed.

Had a shocking day.

Tasha found me crying in the backyard because I felt like everything is too hard.

Monday morning I woke feeling a bit better then yesterday but still not great.

Spoke to mum around 2pm she was really upset and angry, her pension didn’t go in, it will go in on Wednesday.

I have asked mum if we could borrow her car for a few weeks, she said we can but only Tim can drive it.

Leo still here tonight, Jess should be home around 7pm.

I am pleased that Leo & Blain have been getting along.

Tuesday I woke feeling about 90% like myself.

Went with Jess to appointment with the child psychologists about Leo. They are going to go and observe him in class and then he will have to see him at the clinic.

Tim had a phone call from the Perm telling him that he has two credit cards we don’t know about it, one with Citibank and one with Latitude. Turned out one was the Coles Mastercard and the other was a Gem card we never received from an interest free loan.

Tim went and borrowed Mum’s car for a while she said that only him can drive it not Tasha.

Leo is at his house for a couple of nights.

Wednesday I was feeling a lot more like myself today thankfully. So I was able to clean the bath and do a couple of loads of washing.

Looks like Jess should have her car by Saturday.

Tim came home in a better mood.

Thursday morning now I slept most of the night, so woke up feeling good.

It started out nice but has been cold and wet since 2pm so I am glad Tim has a car.

Leo here tonight and he is getting along with Blain.

The Perm contacted Tim they want even more info for the loan. This is a joke.

Friday I was awake since 5.30am and it is wet and cold. I am glad Tim has a car to drive to work.

Jess isn’t getting the car now as the loan is taking too long to be approved.

She is disappointed.

I am in so much pain that I can’t sit or stand and Tasha isn’t here to help, I had a cry but I don’t know how much more I can take.

Saturday and it seems I had some people worried about me, due to my Facebook post yesterday. I woke up feeling a bit better.

Leo is here for the afternoon and night while Jess is working.

Tasha managed to get my Norspan patch at Guardian at Warners Bay.

So another week is done and dusted

TODAY IS  A PROMISE YOU

MAKE TO YOURSELF

BY: Pearce Lane

Another week has pasted and I am still suffering with hot & cold flushes.

Up and managed to dress myself but couldn’t even manage to eat a egg & cheese roll.

Wrote 6 letters, vacuumed out, unpacked the dishwasher and sorted out the clean washing.

Been another hot day.

Started back at aqua today it was good.

Monday and Leo didn’t go to school, neither did Daemon so I have them here while their mums go shopping. Both were well behaved.

Leo is here for the night, he is somewhat hyper as not medicated.

Both Leo & Blain are getting along again.

Tuesday morning and I had a shocking night last night I woke up at 11.30pm to go to the loo and afterwards I had trouble going back to sleep. I had hunger pains and at 12.30am I got up and ate a sherbert cone, which helped

Found Leo asleep in his bed not on it, he had removed the sheets of wood under the mattress.

I have been sick all day and had two naps during the day and also threw up a bit and had to get Tasha come and get me off the bath room floor.

Had another bad night at midnight I took a Valium and it did help.

I went to the doctors this morning he has done a referral to a psychologist at Broadmeadow. I also had to have a blood test for rheumatoid arthritis.

I am still unwell and went back to bed for most of the day.

I am going to bed at 5.45pm.

Thursday I am as sick as, spent all day in bed, too sick to do anything. Leo is here till Tuesday while his mum is at her friends hens do in Casino.

Still sick all day

Friday at 2pm I got a phone call from Tasha she has had an accident while picking Leo up from school, in our car.

There is a lot of front end damage but no one was hurt thankfully.

Tim was angry but more worried about Tasha.

He rang and lodged a claim with the NRMA that will cost us $695 but of course our premiums will go up next year.

At last I am starting to feel a bit better but I am still far from better about 50% better.

Michael sent Tim a message saying that he would have Tim’s back in getting Tasha to pay the excess for the car. However, both Tim & I know we don’t have a hope in hell of getting money from Tasha as she just doesn’t have it.

We took Leo over to his house so he could clean out the bunnies cage and feed them. He did that while Tim & I went to see dad.

When we got home I noticed our neighbour’s daughter was cleaning out her house and had a wheelchair there so , asked what was she doing with it and she said we could have it for $50 so Tim bought it for me.

I am going back to bed at 6pm as I feel like shit.

Well here I am starting another week that was post, I slept in till 8am, I was cold when I woke up but after 5mins I was sweating. I had to get Tasha to come help me get dressed.

Kathy & Summer arrived around 9.30am she came to get her shopping bags.

Switched over to the new laptop.

Monday it is still cold here and I feel like shit. Hot and cold all day.

Tim rang DoH about the carport he was on the phone for an hour and had to go on and on to get his point across.

Mum didn’t get he pension today she should get a hardship payment tomorrow.

Asked Tasha if she will come down in the morning and help me get dressed after my bath.

Here we are at Tuesday and well Tasha forgot to help me this morning but I managed ok.

It is another cold ass day.

Last night after I went to bed I could hear Tim on the phone, I don’t know who he was talking to but at points he sounded like he was crying. Like when he spoke about Dad or Me.

Mum wasn’t paid her pension, I logged into her My Gov and she should be paid tomorrow.

Leo here tonight and has spent some time hanging out with Blain which was nice.

I am really restless this afternoon/evening.

Wednesday morning and Mum was paid this morning.

I felt like crying because I asked Tasha to call in to Jess’s and drop of Leo’s stuff and she got angry and complained about doing it.

Mum had Sue upset her this morning because Mum forgot that she needed a new Webster Pack till it was empty meaning Sue had to go and get it. What upset Sue was she was at the square yesterday and Sandy was there on Monday.

I took half a sleeping tablet last night.

Having another restless afternoon.

Thursday was another bloody cold morning only 4 degrees and I had sweat dripping out of me.

Saw the Dr he said there is no tear in the tendon so just have tendinitis and that takes months to heal. He said to use the walker more then cane

Jessica picked me up from Dr’s and has our car, so she can drive me to grief counselling tomorrow.

Leo here again and like Tuesday night he and Blain got on great.

Friday I had a bath and Tasha came and helped me get dressed.

Dave rang and asked rolling what he has could he just give me the bag of stuff and I said yep. So Leigh brought it over for me.

Jess drove me to grief counselling, the woman was nice we spoke for an hour. She seems to think I am coping well with Dad’s death. She doesn’t feel I will need to go back.

Tasha drove our car to Cessnock, Tim went on about fuel and his tone of voice was annoying.

It has been a hot day temps around 30.

SaturdayThis morning Jess drove me to Charlie while Leo stayed with Papa.

It is another hot day.

Then her and Tim wt to look at a car, she put a $200 deposit down to hold it.

Having a very restless afternoon

Well it is time for some positivity in my life so here are some of the positive things in my life.

I am sleeping better most nights, often not waking more then once.

I can still run the vacuum over the lounge room floor

I can still do the laundry and hang it out to dry, I however, cannot take them off the line

I can remove the bags from the bins tie them up and leave them outside the house, by the front door for someone to place in the garbage bin.

I still load the dishwasher and often unpack it as well.

I am still able to go to appointments, as long as I have someone to drive me.