This Is A Daily Reminder

© Nicolette

This is a daily reminder
To relax,
To not get angry over small things,
To stay calm.

This is a daily reminder
To be yourself,
To not care what people think,
To know you can be anything.

This is a daily reminder
To love yourself,
To not hurt yourself,
To not work yourself up.

This is a daily reminder
That you are beautiful,
That you are amazing,
That you will succeed.

This is a daily reminder
To always have hope,
To have faith,
To know everything will be okay.

This is a daily reminder
That you have made it so far already,
That you haven’t given up,
That whatever you’re doing is right,
And that you are going to be amazing.

Don’t give up.
Keep holding on and believing.

I woke at 6 to go and pee but when I got back into bed I couldn’t breath so I went to find my Vicks nasal stick to unblock my nose so I could breath but couldn’t fine it so I got up instead.

Another bloody cold morning.’

The internet is out it says that I am connected by no access. Which is bloody annoying.

When I spoke to mum she was for the most part good repeated herself a bit as per usual but I didn’t say anything.

Tim at last picked up the boots from mum’s place.

This morning I got dressed in the bedroom as Tim was already at work another cold star to the day. Tasha turned up to get my breakfast stuff ready while I was getting dressed.

More internet problems connected but no not working.

Internet started working 90 minutes after it stopped.

Blain had his blood test and breath test for asthma without any problem.

Tim home by 1.45pm an early day for him although he did start at 4.30am.

Again I woke when Tim got up and got out of bed as he was leaving at 6am, Tasha came and helped get my breakfast and put my socks on for me.

At 9am Tim got home for a while as he has another split shift he will leave at 1.30pm

At 11am I started to feel very tired and unable to concentrate so I went to bed for a bit. A bit turned out to be 2hrs.

I have been both cold and so hot on and off all afternoon.

Leo was early this afternoon arriving just after I got to the t op of the driveway.

Leo here tonight.

Tim’s alarm went off at 6 and mine at 6.13ch is when I got up turned the heater on then Tasha turned up to throw in a load of washing, she then helped me dress.

I empty the recycle bins and vacuumed out

Kathy rang to check up on me it was nice talking to her.

Tasha said the Dept of Housing has approved Jessica’s and Jay’s housing swap, this is great news. Then they turn around and say Jess can’t move into Jay’s as it is for people with mobility problems.

Jessica remembered that Leo has Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, so Jess emailed Dr Murray about getting a letter saying that.

I am annoyed and frustrated for Jess & Jay

Up just before the alarm went off at 6.13am I turned on the bedroom heater and the lounge-room heater on as well.

Tasha came down and helped me get ready for the day. Had to get her to help me with a singlet because my chest felt tight.

It heated up as the day wore on, mum rang me at 11.30 she was feeling lonely and wanted someone to talk to, so we chatted for an hour.

After Leo got home I had a bath while drying off mum rang again and we chatted for another half hour.

Tasha & Jade are appealing the decision about the house swap on the grounds that Leo has Ehlers Danlos Syndrome .

Jess said she wouldn’t be fighting it if it wasn’t for Jade & Tasha.

Tasha does all the talking on Jess’s behalf We have to print and fill in more forms.

A new day same old problems more phone calls from Tasha to people about Jess & Jades swap.

I was waiting with Leo this morning when it started to rain and Leo made me come back inside, he was worried about the scooter getting wet.

Kathy came and took me to see dad in the wet weather we took the wheelchair with us to make it easier for me to get around after seeing dad we went to Warners Bay Plaza for me to go to Hot Bargain just to have a look around.

By the time I got home I was in a state and had a smoke while I got myself together.

The first thing Tasha said when she heard was I hope you didn’t go to Charlestown Square.

Blain got sent home from school as he was throwing up again.

I have been feeling really tired since 2pm I can barely keep my eyes opened.

I woke at 7.40 after sleeping all night didn’t get dressed just had my morning wash an waited till Kathy arrived to give me a shower at 9am.

Tim went and had his fasting blood test done and he picked up the shopping while out.

Spoke to mum and she sounded ok although she did repeat herself a lot .

Jess rang and asked if Leo could stay the night while she went out to visit Kelli & Jay at Kelli’s of course I said he could.

Mum rang again while I was getting ready for bed, I will ring her back in the morning.

We Wear The Mask

By Paul Laurence Dunbar

We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,—
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!

Had a sleep in till 8am and rang Kathy to see is she was coming and she said she will be here by 9am to give me a shower.

Had a shower, then Kathy was telling us about the block of land it is a corner block and when she told Tasha she had an attitude being negative about how far away she will be. Kathy ended up in tears, which upset me

Fantastic Furniture rang and Tim went and picked up the new recliner. It looks good.

Jessica working, Leo is staying at home and Papa or I will ring him during the day to check on him.

Michael’s birthday I sent him a birthday message

I woke at 7am when Tim got up, a cold and wet morning, Tim’s at work all day, I will be in bed when he gets home.

Kathy-Lee & Summer turned up and Jess & Leo turned up, Summer had a tie dyed shirt for Jess that she did herself. Jess likes it

Jess & Leo were here so long he got hungry and of course as soon as he made food she decided to leave but since she had to go to work to hand in paper work she told him she would go to work and by the time she got back he was finished.

Been cold and wet all day

I woke at 6 when Tim was leaving for work I asked him to turn the heater on before he left for work so the room was warm by the time I got out of bed.

Jess & Leo turned up at 7.20am and left at 7.45 as she had a late start.

Because it is wet I had Tasha go with Leo to meet his driver.

Tim home at 11.45 for a bit, he left at 1.30 to do his afternoon run.

Leo’s early day and because it is still raining I had to ask Tasha to go and wait for him.

Woke up at 5.50 when Tim got up so I turned the heater on to warm the room before I got up at 6am.

It has been pissing down rain since I woke up and I guess before that. Due to the heavy rain I didn’t send Leo to meet the driver with Tasha until 8.05 which is around the time the driver arrives, anyway Tasha thought he was driving off as they arrived an that pissed her off.

Hasn’t stopped raining all day. Tasha made a cheese & chicken schnitzel for lunch it was nice.

This morning Leo took the large umbrella that is behind the front door to school and of course it broke not his fault just happened I am not upset about it, these things happen.

Woke up at 5.50 when Tim got up so I turned the heater on to warm the room before I got up at 6am.

It has been pissing down rain since I woke up and I guess before that. Due to the heavy rain I didn’t send Leo to meet the driver with Tasha until 8.05 which is around the time the driver arrives, anyway Tasha thought he was driving off as they arrived an that pissed her off.

Hasn’t stopped raining all day. Tasha made a cheese & chicken schnitzel for lunch it was nice.

This morning Leo took the large umbrella that is behind the front door to school and of course it broke not his fault just happened I am not upset about it, these things happen.

I woke at 5.30 but laid in bed till the alarm went off and because Tim is at work I am able to get dressed in the bedroom .

While I was getting dressed I heard Tasha come in and put a load of washing on, then she started mt breakfast for me.

At least it isn’t raining so I was able to take Leo to meet his driver and then I was able to empty all the bins ready for collection tomorrow.

Jess arrived at 3.25pm so she was able to meet Leo while I had a bath before getting ready for bed.

I woke at 4am to empty my bladder, I hadn’t been back in bed very long, well it didn’t seem very long when Tim said it was time to get up, I asked him what time it was and he looked at the clock and said it is 5.10. this was followed by him saying 5.10 bloody hell I am an hour early so he got back into bed.

We got up an hour later. As Tim was leaving I told him to leave the screen door open so Natasha would know I was up.

Tasha arrived a couple of minutes later and helped me dress and got my breakfast ready.

Tasha took me to the podiatrist all good with my feet they are still attached.

I went to wait for Leo and it was bloody cold up there waiting but I had my warm dressing gown with a hood on.

I woke at 6am to pee and turned the heater on in the bedroom to warm the room but when my alarm went off and I got up and came out and checked what time Tim starts it was 8am so I decided to get dressed in the bathroom.

Tasha arrived to get my breakfast and throw a load in the washing machine and was surprised that I wasn’t in the kitchen, she thought I was still in bed so went to wake me only to find her dad was still in bed and it was me in the bathroom. She wondered what was taking me so long but I get up pee, brush my teeth wash my face apply face cream, deodorant and clothes.

I washed the kitchen floor with the steam cleaner it looks so much better.

Found it Tim changed our mobile phones from post paid to prepaid this he did without talking to me first which I find annoying, not because I object to the transfer but because he wouldn’t like it if I did something like this without talking to him first.

The new plan is $30 per month with 35G of data from $40 for only 15 G of data, all calls are included as well as sms texts.

We are still with Optus .the only company we have had for our mobile phones.

Woke up to Jessica knocking at the front door at 7am she didn’t have her key and the house was locked up because I was still in bed. Once up I stayed up because I am not one to go back to bed.

I have recharged our mobiles via Paypal.

Kathy came and gave me a shower and she had both girls with her, this made me happy.

Tim went to check on Leo and they had a moment both got angry and Tim rang me to get me to ring Leo, but he wouldn’t answer so I ended up stressed, this caused me to shake really bad from head to foot., I rang Tasha and as soon as Blain heard my distress voice he ran down to check on me. He helped me get my bread roll out of the oven cut and butter it.

I then went and had a smoke and rang mum the smoke helped ease the tremor by half.

Tasha went over and picked up Leo and brought him back here, he was fine, in fact before Papa left to come home they hugged and when Leo got here he was fine.

He is here till his mum finishes work.

Today for me has been a stressful one.

A Friend Is…

© Chloe G. Railsback

A friend is a person
who has always has your back,
a person
who has faith in you and says that you can.

A friend is a person
who points you onward, instead of leading you askew,
a person
who gives you hope to see the journey through.

A friend is a person
who helps you up when you’ve fallen,
a person
who cheers you up when you’re sullen.

A friend is a person
who even though all have passed,
still cheers you on,
even if you’re in last.

A friend is a person
who remembers what you knew,
a person
who stands by you and forgets every feud.

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Hello everyone , it is cold and wet today and I feel like shit, stuffed up in the head and a tight chest but that is neither here or there because it is fact day.

The area of the earth is almost 200 million square miles, if you say so

Earth travels through space at 66,700 miles per hour, sounds fast

A “funambulist” is a tight rope walker, I can’t even pronounce it

The word “electric” was first used back in the 1600’s by Dr William Gilbert a doctor to Queen Elizabeth 1, I wonder why the word was used and what it described back then.

The thin line of cloud that forms behind an aircraft at high altitudes is called a contrail, ok .

The area of the earth is almost 200 million square miles, if you say so

Earth travels through space at 66,700 miles per hour, sounds fast

A “funambulist” is a tight rope walker, I can’t even pronounce it

The word “electric” was first used back in the 1600’s by Dr William Gilbert a doctor to Queen Elizabeth 1, I wonder why the word was used and what it described back then.

The thin line of cloud that forms behind an aircraft at high altitudes is called a contrail, ok .

Sometimes it is a slender thrread,

Sometimes a strong, stout rope;

She clings to one end,

I the other;

She calls it friendship;

I call it hope

BY: Lois Wyse

Good morning everyone, how is everyone doing, I am coolish on a cold morning only 8 degrees here but I do not have the heater on as I am not that cold.

Well here are this weeks facts that you may or may not know.

The term “it’s all fun and games until someone loses an eye” first came from Ancient Rome. The only rule during wrestling matches was “no eye gouging” Everything else was allowed and the only way to be disqualified was to poke someone’;s eye out.

The word malaria means “bad air” This comes from the days when it was thought that all diseases where caused by bad or dirty air.

Contrary to popular belief elephants are not afraid of mice.,

Vincent Van Gogh cut off his right ear, however, his self portrait with bandaged ear showed his left ear bandaged because he used a mirror to paint it.

If you took all the urine produced by the world’s population in one day it would take 20 minutes or it to flow over Niagara Falls.

I woke up at 7am at the same time Tim got up Leo got up to say goodbye to Papa.

Kathy arrived at 9am and gave me a shower & a shave and strip the bed and put the sheets on to wash.

I woke Leo at 10..50am and Tasha took him to get his mum and they went to look at cars.

Mum sounded unwell when I spoke to her, so only a short chat today around 30 mins.

Up with the alarm as usual, turned the lounge-room light on and opened. The front door so Tasha would know I was up. She turned up while I was preparing breakfast.

Tim is off work for three days, some days it feels like he is always taking time off, not saying that’s the case she feels like it.

Tim and I went to Fantastic Furniture to look for a new armchair for me and found a nice one that will match what we have for $399 of course it was out of stock and should be in stock in 1 or 2 weeks. We took the wheelchair so I didn’t need to try and walk.

Mum still sounded sick this afternoon, she rang this morning and asked if I could loan Michelle $50 and this afternoon Dawson transferred it back into my account.

This afternoon I had to take something for my nose it was running like a tap, so annoying.

A cold and wet morning got up with the alarm and dressed in the bathroom with the heater again. No Tasha this morning because it has been so cold and wet, pissing down while I was getting dressed.

Tim went and picked up a bed for Leo cost him $20, now to get a mattress for it then it can be assembled for use.

Went to print something on a small piece of paper and it got jammed and neither Tim or I could get it out. So he set up the Epson from his room. However, when I tried to print it is out of ink.

Another cold day here, I got up and dressed and while having breakfast Tasha sent a text saying she will come and shower me ready to go out for lunch

Had a shower and got dressed ready to go out for lunch.

Tim went down the road for something I rang the chemist after he left to check on uhhthe scripts being sent by the doctor, well they had mine but not Tim’s. So I then rand the doctors to check about them and his was still there so I said Tim would go and pick them up while he is out.

Then later in the afternoon he went to the chemist and picked up the medication thankfully we had enough money in the account to pay for it all. Four lots of medication one for Tim and three for me total cost $66.

A new day still cold, even though Tim was at work I decided to still get dressed in the bathroom as it is warmer.

Tim is back at work today so and I am happy with myself as I managed to lodge the piece of paper from the printer and it is working again just fine.

I downloaded a new book for tonight but when I went to find it to listen to I couldn’t find it. Tasha found another book for me to listen to tonight.

I woke at 5.30 needing to pee but thought I would hold on to the alarm went off at 6.15 but nope couldn’t do it and had to get up at 5.40 so I stayed up. I know some people would go back to bed for half an hour but not me I was up and awake so stayed up.

Tasha dropped off Jess work clothes for me to wash as she has work tomorrow.

I was sitting writing letters when I heard the sound of someone mowing out the back yard I had no idea who it was, so I looked outside and it was our neighbour’s son.

Had a phone call from Jeannie this morning thanking me for her birthday ppresent that arrived in the mail today for here, it was nice to hear from her. Her birthday is Sunday so arrived in good time.

I slept all night waking at 6.15 but after checking the time I managed to go back to sleep till 7am.

Found the washing machine going so Tasha had been here.

Had a message from Jess her washing machine isn’t working and of course it is full of water and wet clothes. She has asked her dad to go over and look at it when he picks up Leo.

Jess is working today doing another wine tour.

Jess’s washing machine isn’t draining so her dad went over and managed to empty the water from it and brought over her wet clothes and I am rewashing them for her and I will also dry them.

Tasha went over and looked at Jess’s washing machine she pulled it out from the wall took the drainage hose off washed it out and made sure it wasn’t blocked. Fingers cross it is fixed.

Tasha also brought over more washing from Jessica’s place, which I have done and is now in the dryer.

Tim bought some red spray paint for Leo’s new bed.

We know we are not considered a burden by our families but sadly we often do, it is the sigh in your voice or see the roll of your eyes or just a look may come over your face. These things tell us you really don’t want to do something we have asked. So we feel we are asking too much and putting you out. Our feelings are real we can help feeling the way we are at that time

This is directed towards my daughters, my husband and my siblings not because they do or say anything intentional to upset either myself or my mum but unfortunately this is how we often feel.

I like my mum have terrific kids who do a lot for us but still at times we feel like we are asking too much.

In my head mum’s problems are understandable as she is 80yrs old now. However, I am only 57 and in worse state then mum,well that’s how I feel at times. I am unable to do so much like even shower myself.

Life is hard but we still keep on trying and getting up each morning trying to dress myself and face the day and I do this day after day.