Last weekend was the wedding of my beautiful niece Heather to here long time partner Paul, the wedding was held in their back yard with only grandparents, siblings and selected aunts and uncles invited. I went by myself as Tim had to work.

When I attend weddings it makes me think of my own wedding way back when, my wedding was lovely and everything a wedding should be, however, it wasn’t everything I wanted. By this I mean back then I didn’t have my own voice, I was only just shy of 22yrs old at the time.

Also my parents paid for pretty much everything so I kind of just went with the flow and let things be done more the way mum wanted it, as I said I didn’t have my voice. Let me explain more, the wedding cake was a traditional fruit cake, I don’t eat fruit cake never have I just do not like it my dress was my aunts dress and it was a nice dress but not really what I wanted when I look at my wedding photos now I think it was a big old fashioned. We also had a church wedding but what I had really wanted was a wedding held in either a park or at my parents place.

So lately as in the last few years I have thought about renewing our vows but Tim is not interested in doing so, ok let’s be honest here it is not the ceremony I want to do again as much as it is the reception thing, ok I want a nice chocolate wedding cake. I know how that sounds but what the hell it is how I feel.

So how does others feel about renewing wedding vows?

Did my married friends have the wedding they really wanted? 

 

Ok does anyone really have an emergency plan? I know we don’t have one, if the house caught fire while we are in it I have no idea how I would react maybe I would just freak out and run around in panic…………………….lol

Thankfully the are we live in do not have things like Tsunami’s or Tornados or cyclones we have had a earthquake way back in 1989 though. When the earthquake happened it wasn’t that bad here at my house, I do remember running out of the house in my bra without a top on……lol.

There have been times when I have been watching these disasters on telly and have said to Tim I have no idea how I would be if it happened here, and how we don’t have any kind of emergency plan in case of fire or flood, he just shrugs and says we will worry about it when it happens.

So do other people have emergency plans? If your house caught fire while you were in it would you know what to do or would you be like me and just panic…………..Do you  live in are area where natural disasters happen? If so are you prepared for one?

 

Sounds simple doesn’t it accept and respect that all people are different, so why is it so hard for so many people to do. There are so many judgemental people in the world, I try very hard not to judge others. I may not agree with someone’s actions or how they chose to live their life but I am able to take a deep breathe and tell myself it is their life not mine and they are allowed to make choices that are different from mine.

Hubby will get all bent out of shape about people being gay, me I don’t care he will go on that it is not what God wants, me I say well if that is the case they are the ones who will have to answer to God when the time comes. As far as I am concerned if a person treat me right then I will in turn teat them the same.

It is not for us mere humans to go around judging people on their life choices, or their religion I don’t care what religion a person is as long as they are not a nut case who wants to go around killing people in the so called name of their religion.

Far to often the minority are seen to represent the whole it is like saying I was mugged by a purple alien so all purple aliens must be bad, what a load of rot……………..

Each and every person is just that a person, some are good, some not so much, some are evil it has nothing to do with the colour of their skin, or their religion it is who they are, good, bad or whatever. Take each person as you find them and stop painting everyone with the same brush.

 

Ok I am not a fan of cat in the hat, even when my girls where little I was not one for Dr Seuss books just so everyone knows but this by the cat in the hat well it is pretty spot on but does it apply to me…………………..well yes and no……………ok more yes then no……………

That said even though I am 50yrs old and that means my life is about half over, I do not feel old most of the time. I have no problem saying how old I am I am proud of my age I don’t think I look like an old 50yr old more like a youngish 50yr old, if that makes any sense.

However my eyesight isn’t what it use to be, can’t read a damn thing without my glasses, and can’t eat steak without my teeth in and I need my hearing aids more and more but at least I have my health………………..Ok my health isn’t 100% either but I am dead yet……..lol

So I am 50 I have reached the top of the mountain and I intend to hang around here a while before I start the long road down leading to a coffin and heaven and I intended it to be a long, road. I have no intention of dying any time soon,

So am I aging yeah maybe my body is but my heart and soul is still young

 

Now this bit of advice seems so simple, but if it was truly that simple why do so many people keep making the same bad choices. Is it habit of is it something else, I try to make good choices I don’t know how often I succeed in doing so.

There have been times when I have heard this one or that one complain about how their life sucks and that keep making the same mistakes but they are the ones who keep making the same choices. If those choices are bad ones why are you still making them, pick better, do better.

I know there are those who think I have some kind of perfect life, it’s not perfect but it is mine and yes I have made bad choices but I accept that I did and try not to make the same mistake again. I put it behind me and move forward.

Life is full of choices we have to pick the best ones for us, sometimes it my not turn out to be the best choice if that happens accept you screwed up and move on and try not to go down that path again.

Some people I know have a habit of stalling or moving backwards and this is why they make the same bad choice again, they are not learning and they are not moving forward. Going forward on the same bad choice road is not going to get you anywhere you will find the road loops round on itself and you end up back where you started from.

So if you find yourself on a road full of bad choices and mistakes, stop, take a deep breath look around you and find the way off that road and move forward.

 

We all know this to be true, so why is so hard for so many of us to accept it and to live with these thoughts in mind. I know that I find it very hard to accept that people love and care for me the way I am and that they don’t judge me on how I look or the size of my clothes. When a person can accept themselves and can look in a mirror and just see the good person they are then maybe they will be able to start living and enjoying life. I have come a long way I have more days when I do just see the loving, kind Jo-Anne and not the short, fat somewhat average looking woman that I have for many years seen in the mirror, however, it is not easy by any means.

It is hard because I do try to exercise and not eat to much rubbish food and still I keep getting fatter and fatter and I am told to hang in there it all takes time for the hard work to show, how long is does it take. Bloody hell I am 50 yrs old I have been doing all the right things most of my adult life and still I am overweight and in pain and I swear the next time a doctor tells me to lose weight I will go ape shit. I am so over hearing it tell me something I don’t know.

Life is hard but I do try, I get up every day whether I feel like it or not and no matter how much my back aches or my feet hurt I carry on because I am mum I do not have time to lounge around in bed. Although there are times that I feel like it life is to be lived and enjoyed and you can’t do that lounging around in bed all day, you have to put in an effort.

 

Now maybe if I had this list years ago I would have been a success but I doubt it as I am a pretty lazy person and can’t follow rules or suggestions………………lol

Yesterday I spent most of the day home alone as hubby was at work all day but around 5pm I had to leave and go over to my precious first born’s house to watch my beautiful granddaughters Sydney-May & Summer while their parents went out for the night. I got there around 5.30pm and Kathy was just getting Sydney’s tea for her chicken and corn which she ate 95% off and me (nanna) was happy, I then gave her some pink milk.

After tea I gave both girls a bath then I made a bottle for Summer and while I was feeding her Sydney climbed up on the lounge and sat with me and by the time I had finished feeding Summer both girls were asleep. So I carried Summer to bed and settled her down then I carried Sydney into bed and settled her down………..talk about lucky………………the rest of the night past pretty quick.

I spent the time watching telly, free to air tv as they don’t have pay tv but that was fine Kathy and Michael arrived home around 10.30pm just as Summer was waking for another bottle so Kathy fed her and settled her down while I headed home.

After getting home I had a relaxing bath before heading off to bed, and of course this morning I slept in till 9am as it was close to midnight before I went to bed. Today I have done very little I did go down to Jessica’s place as Leo was upset because he left his stuff dog Basie and his toy dinosaur Harris here and wanted them back. He was so excited to see them when I arrived.

Tim has been busy outside today cleaning up some of the back yard and some of the front yard and have to say I can notice the difference to both yards.

Bloody hell it is cold here today, I am wearing two pairs of socks and long johns and track pants, as well as a singlet shirt and my nice warm dressing gown. I said to Tim that I am cold and what does he say “no it’s not” of course he wouldn’t think it’s cold, the man is strange anyway I also have another bloody headache I have been getting a lot of headaches lately and I am wondering if it has anything to do with how cold it has been.

Yesterday while I was at the doctors I asked what she would recommend for headaches and what does she tell me I am taking enough pain killers and I shouldn’t need to take anything else and that I should just lay down and rest when I get a headache. Also said I could try keeping the house warm but yeah like I am going to run up my electricity bill by doing that even if hubby would agree.

Yesterday I was so cold that I ended up having a hot bath to warm up and today it’s not much better, at least I do not have to go outside. It is also raining here today which is another reason I am glad I do not have to go outside.

I think I might make some chocolate muffins as I feel like chocolate but have none of course, earlier I had Kathy and her girls call in she asked me to watch Summer while she took Sydney-May to her swimming lesson which of course I did. While she was here of course she had to eat one of my Flake ice creams the girl reminds me of me……………..I like to go to my mums house and eat her food………….