Hello Monday……..I feel sad

Hello Monday, looks like I am going to have another week without a car, Tim said he will talk to the mechanic today and see when he can take the car back into be looked at, he doesn’t want me to drive it and this is so frustrating.

Not having a car means I feel like I am letting my girls down as I am unable to drive Leo to or from school but this isn’t anything I can change it is just the way it is right now, but still I have been made to feel like I am letting them down, I am sure they do not mean to make me feel like this but I do and it is easy to say not to feel like this but not so easy to do. Changing the way one feels isn’t something that is easy to do.

Our feelings come from some place inside us and really we don’t really have a lot of control over our feelings, well I don’t think we do. It is easy to say don’t feel bad but often we do feel bad if it was easy to change the way we feel then we would, wouldn’t we.

Do you feel that you can control your feelings?

Do your feelings seem to take over your body at times?

I know when I am feeling sad or like I have let someone down my body reacts and I end up with headaches and feeling tired which is how I am feeling today, tired very tired and sad inside because I am unable to do what I would like to do for my family.

I know that my online friends are going to tell me not to feel bad and that I am unable to change anything it is not my fault the car is not running and that can run around after my girls and grandsons but as I have already said for me it is not that easy.